I normally always write some sort of reflective post or journal entry when my birthday rolls around. Rather than being reflective and introspective around New Year’s I get that way around my birthday. Yet, my birthday came and went in rather quick fashion. In some ways I don’t even feel it was celebrated in normal fashion, and I’m okay with that.

I know that looking back on the last year always proves fruitful for me.Yet, I don’t feel as reflective lately. So, this rambling may seem a bit more choppy, a bit more disconnected, and just overall less cohesively reflective.

25 was quite the year. It was the year of lots of firsts. LOTS of hard things. Some good things. Amounts of desperation I did not think I could feel.

Firsts: moving out and living with two roommates, first job in Zionsville, first ‘real contract’ job post-graduation, first call to CPS, first chance to really experience what I have always known to be true– kids NEED consistency, first spring break EVER to ‘get away’, first time to live on the north side of town, first time to fly in an airplane (!!!), first time to California and in the Pacific Ocean, first time to see (and meet) some of the greats- J. MacArthur, Rick Holland, Al Mohler… first apartment, first time to buy my own mattress, first time to ever resign from a ‘real’ job… the list could go on and on.

Probably the biggest highlights of the year: getting away over spring break, flying (for the first time) to Cali (for the first time, Resolved, and a few others…

Hardest things: working 2 jobs, certain living arrangements, my job, praying through some decisions, my job, lots of unknowns- at times in virtually every area in my life, my job, my job…

Soundtrack of my life this year:

Whatever You’re Doing by Sanctus Real

Blessed by Rachael Lampa

When the Saints by Sara Grove

Haven’t Met You Yet by Buble

Yearn by Shane and Shane

Rest Easy by Audio Adrenaline

How He Loves by David Crowder

Safe by Phil Wickham

Our Great God by Fernando Ortega

Multiple songs by Enfield

Realize by Colbie Caillat

All I Have is Christ by Sovereign Grace

Jesus Paid it All by Kristian Stanfill

John 15 by Joel Limpic

If We’ve Ever Needed You by Casting Crowns

Behind the Scenes by Francesa Battistelli

God Only Knows by Joy Williams

The Valley by Lindsey Kane

Always by Building 429

Laura Story